Tuesday, January 28, 2014

2/3 Done...The Rest Should Be A Breeze

Contrary to my original, overly ambitious declaration, I have NOT kept this blog updated.  Why?  Partly because it hasn't been such an easy journey.  Yes, I'm eating delicious food.  Yes, I know that it's better for my body.  Yes, it's less expensive than when I go out all of the time.  Yet, this way of eating is TOUGH.  It's difficult NOT to think about all of the things I can't eat.  And yes, I know you should think of it as "I'm choosing not to eat this delicious thing that could kill me," but it still feels like deprivation.

It's been a pretty funny journey.  I've had several people comment on how this "diet" doesn't seem healthy.  These are the same people who remained silent while I ate Popeye's, went to happy hours, drank copious amounts of alcohol.  They warned me that "you'll gain it all back when you go back to your regular diet."  This was bothersome for a few reasons:

  1. In what universe is it supportive to tell someone that they're pretty much destined to gain all of the weight back?
  2. When did you get your personal training/nutritionist certifications?
  3. Why do they presume that I'm going to go back to my regular way of eating?  
I'm hoping to use Whole30 as a life-changer.  No, I don't plan to continue this way forever.  It IS too restrictive for me to continue eating this way, but I do plan/hope to eat clean the majority of the time.

I'm down a total of 17.2 pounds.  Without further ado, here are my progress pics:

My belly is still pretty big, and I have a long way to go, but I can definitely see some progress, especially in my face.


Thursday, January 9, 2014

Day 2--Hopeful But Struggling A Bit

Meal 1:
3 scrambled eggs (hey, I was hungry!)
1/2 cup of grapes
1 cup of shrimp and broccoli that I baked on Sunday
16.9 oz. of water

"Snack":
16.9 oz. water

Meal 2:
1 piece of Salmon du Nord
Asparagus sauteed in extra light tasting olive oil and Adobo
11 grapes (arbitrary amount)
5 chunks of fresh pineapple (also an arbitrary amount)
16.9 oz. of water

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

Day 1--On My Period


Today is the first day of the rest of my life.  Or something.  I woke up craving a bit of Pepsi.  Since I hadn't done my measurements or anything yet, I convinced myself that taking a swig of Pepsi at 2 a.m. wasn't technically cheating.  Yeah, the addiction is real in the streets.

At a more reasonable hour of 5:30 a.m., my sweet sister, Taylor, was kind enough to photography me in a sports bra and pajama bottoms.  I'm VERY nervous about posting these.  Despite my oversharing nature, there's something so vulnerable about putting my flaws out here on display.  What if someone shares these photos with people I don't like (or, worse, people that don't like me)?  I realized that there's nothing that I can do about it.  So, without further ado, here's my starting look (Yes, I'm smiling.  I hate when the "before" pics look so sad like life is perpetually miserable if you're not thin.):

Front view, hands on hips (side note: why do my legs look so dark?):                         


Front view, throwing up little muskels



Side view of my upper and lower belly

Back view, showing off "muscles" (you can really see my tan when you compare my arms and my back)

       

Back view, hands on hips

When I got to work this morning, I was confronted by my most recent soda binge.  This represents approximately 2 weeks of soda consumption, but doesn't include any soda that I have away from the job.  *sigh*
Giving up Pepsi is likely to be the toughest part of this whole experience.


The other difficult aspect will be sticking to one of the fundamental rules of Whole30:

DO NOT STEP ON THE SCALE OR TAKE ANY BODY MEASUREMENTS FOR THE DURATION OF THE PROGRAM.


The reasons are explained below: 


And now, it's time for breakfast.  Here are photos of the things that I brought to work to consume today:


For Meal 1 (Whole30 recommends changing your way of thinking from Breakfast, Lunch, and Dinner to Meal 1, Meal 2, and Meal 3), I'm having a hard boiled egg and Shepherd's Pie.

For Meal 2, I'm having Captain's Country Chicken, 1/2 of a sweet potato, and some red seedless grapes.  To wash my meals down, I'll be having water.  Whole30 also frowns upon drinking juices, even fresh fruit juices, because the satiety signal that your body gets when it drinks is different from the one it gets when you chew.

I promise to post a short video at the end of each day, and also to update with dinner.

2:18 p.m.
Just finished 32 oz. of water.  I'd like to get in another 48 oz. before bed tonight.  I'm also behind on my squat & plank challenges.  I need to catch up on those.

8:30 p.m.
I ended up feeling kinda tired for a lot of the day.  It could be because of the yoga and physical therapy that I did yesterday.  Or it could be the lack of sugar and caffeine.  Either way, I fell asleep on the sofa right around 8:00.  Here's my video recap.  Excuse the eyes rolling around.




Tuesday, January 7, 2014

Changing My Way of Thinking AND Behaving

One of the hardest parts of trying to lose weight, if not THE hardest, is changing my thinking.  I'm not quite sure how or when it happened, but I feel like I've become the Funny Fat Girl.  I was always clever (I'm not being boastful, I just was).  But in the past few years, I've noticed a lot more self-deprecating comments flying out of my mouth unbidden.  I joke about someone not liking me cuz I'm fat.  I'll joke about being too big to do something.  It's not even a conscious thing.  I don't sit there and think "Put people at ease about your size by making a joke of it."

I read an article on Huffington Post the other day, and it really stuck with me.  The gist of it is that thinner people can be all about empowering women on issues of body image, but a fat woman can't do the same thing.

And I'm now realizing how damaging those words can be.  Yes, I'm fat.  In fact, a doctor so kindly let me know that clinically speaking I'm morbidly obese.  Isn't that a lovely adverb-adjective combo?  Who wants to be called that?

Anyway...I'm resolving to stop doing that.  I'd like to be kinder to myself.  I'd like to forgive myself for letting things get to out of control.  I'd like to recognize my beauty while striving to be even MORE beautiful.  I'd like to get to the point where I don't really mention my weight at all in conversation unless someone else brings it up.

Tomorrow is the beginning.

Monday, January 6, 2014

First Grocery Shopping Trip of 2014

Before beginning any kind of healthy eating program, you probably need to do a big shopping trip.  For me, this began with Taylor and Kelsey cleaning out the fridge on Friday night (I have a boot on.  I can't stand for long periods of time.  At least, that's my story and I'm sticking to it.).  It's funny how bare the fridge looks without most of the junk in it.

Saturday morning, Kelsey and I went to three different grocery stores:

  • Whole Foods
  • Trader Joe's
  • Harris Teeter

I hadn't shopped at Harris Teeter before, and I wasn't that impressed.  Some of their prices were comparable to Whole Foods, but I didn't feel like the experience was as glamorous.  It was like shopping at Safeway while paying Balducci's prices.  If I have to pay an arm and a leg, I want the place to look fancy.

Anyway...my goal was to spend no more than $150 on this trip.

I started with a list of things I wanted to buy.


First stop was Whole Foods.  I know that they're CRAZY expensive, but there are some things that I've only seen there.  Coconut aminos (great alternative to soy sauce), nitrate free bacon, boneless chicken thighs, chicken wingettes, bean sprouts, and nori for our homemade sushi.  Total: $36.94 
                                 



Next up was Trader Joe's.  If I'd known then what I know now, I would have bought the bulk of our produce from here.  Yes, a couple friends tried to tell me, but I like to learn the hard way (by spending too much money).

I like the very feel of the store.  As soon as we got into the elevator, I felt happy (and so did Kelsey).

   

Yes, I'm a nerd.  I DID take a photo of the closed elevator doors. #dontjudgeme


My happiness soon waned.  This is the face I make when I realize that Trader Joe's is out of the almond meal that I prefer:


Back to business.  We bought jalapenos, raisins, red wine vinegar, bell peppers, and curry powder.  Total: $11.68



We ended with Harris Teeter, where we made our biggest purchase.  Like I said earlier, I probably wouldn't go there again to make the larger purchases.  Some things were on a great sale.  For example, they currently have packs of fresh boneless, skinless chicken breasts on sale (buy 2, get 3 free).  So, we got chicken breasts for around $2.00/pound once you total everything up.  Yes, we'll be eating chicken breasts for every meal next week, but at least it's cheap.  I have to thank Traci for the tip.  Total: $117.79


 

I considered it a successful shopping trip.  I didn't stay under the budget that I set for myself, but a few things were for Kelsey and Taylor (bread, pudding, etc.).

See you next week!


My First Cook Up of 2014

What is a cook up? 

According to Urban Dictionary (the definitive word on all things), a cook up has several meanings. Some of my faves are:
  1. street term for crack
  2. what prisoners create out of various food items from the commissary list at their particular jail or prison
My definition is more simple.  It's the process of cooking a lot of food at once, saving time during the week.

This morning, I got up and began cooking at 5:53 a.m.  My plan was to complete 5 main dishes/protein sources.  I finished at 11:21 a.m.  So, I prepped and cooked for almost five and a half hours straight, but it was so worth it.  I got most of these recipes from the amazingly wonderful cookbook called, "Well Fed."  I can't tell you how delicious these recipes are.

Here we go!

The first thing I made was the Blue Ribbon Captain Country Chicken.  Here's a pic of the ingredients:


Here's my favorite cutting mat from a collection.  It prevents cross-contamination.  I got it from The Container Store.










Here's a pic of all of the ingredients put together and ready to go into the oven. 


While waiting for the other ingredients to cook in the oven, I toasted the almonds.  These things are addictive!


Here's a pic of the finished product.  I love all the different colors.  It just makes it seem healthy.


The second thing I made was the Shepherd's Pie.  Here's a pic of the ingredients:



First, I made the cauliflower topping.  I started by boiling the cauliflower florets until they're soft, but not too soft.  Then, I put them in my Ninja and pureed them as much as possible.  Then I put them back in a pot with some almond milk, salt and pepper and made them even softer.



While the cauliflower was cooking, I chopped up the carrots and onions and sauteed them.




There was a little left over so, in the interest of not being wasteful, I put it in a container for use later in spinach or eggs or something.


Next, I cooked the meat along with the carrots and onions, broth, .


At first, it was very juicy.






 Here's the finished product:





The next thing I made was the Salmon a L’Afrique du Nord.  Here's a pic of the ingredients:

Here's the marinade:


This is what it looks like once I rub the marinade on:


 Here's a pic of the finished product.  The skin is nice and crispy.  Mmm...


The next thing I made was a roasted/baked broccoli and shrimp dish.  Here's a pic of the ingredients:


 



 

The last thing I cooked wasn't from a recipe.  It was just throwing together a few things.  When we were in Costa Rica on our honeymoon, I caught a trout.  The way they cooked it was so lovely that I wanted to recreate it.  Well, we didn't have trout at our house.  We had tilapia.  So I cooked that instead.

Here are the ingredients:


I started with some ghee in the pan.  Ghee is clarified butter.  It has a higher burn point than butter, which allows for high temperature cooking without any smoke being produced.  I then used one part minced garlic, one part salt and one part pepper.  I made a sort of rub and put it on the tilapia.  Note to newbies: ghee has a bit of salt in it on its own, so be sparing with adding too much salt to your marinade/rub.

Anywho, here's the finished product.  It probably  doesn't look as good as it tastes.  I'm not a professional chef and I don't use special lighting to make it look good.


This made approximately 24 servings of food.  So, enough for lunch and dinner for Kelsey and me for the entire week (with a little for Taylor when she wants some).